Eight years ago today I was starting a new chapter in a new city with new people. It was one of the most daring things I have ever done. The months and years that followed were scary and exhilarating and brought me to places I never thought I would go.
It was in those months and years following that leap of faith that I started pushing to know more about myself and the world around me. I wanted more from life- I wanted depth and breadth, quality over quantity. This desire was only intensified by our three awesome kiddos.
The past year or so has been exhausting both physically and emotionally. I’ve felt uninspired and lost. It’s a feeling I know too well- that combination has cropped up a few times in my adult life and it always brings a wave of change.
Somehow this evening we ended up watching Garden State after Charlie had gone to bed and the in laws had left. I made our favorite stovetop cocoa with whipped cream and we snuggled up with the dogs. The energy in our house changed as the movie went on, it was almost electric. Carver introduced me to the movie eight years ago on that first weekend after he picked me up at the airport- freezing and snowed in we got to know each other and he got to remedying my movie deficit. I wasn’t immediately sold and the music was different than what I had been listening to even the weekend before. But it spoke to me on so many levels and as we watched it again this evening, that sense of searching and peace came rushing back.
While 2016 was filled with highs and lows, I’m optimistic that 2017 will bring even more bliss. Wishing you all a healthy and blissful 2017.